Who am I?

Warning! Empathy may occur...

Since there is no way to "gussy up" my life I will go with the brief, straight to the point description of me....

I am an only child raised by a slightly neurotic single mother. My father was murdered when I was 7 years old over a drug deal gone wrong. At a young age my uncle molested me and left me with unfathomable scares. I have been unfortunate enough to watch several people die in my arms. One of them was my son when I was only 17 years old. I attended 13 different schools and unquestionably know what it is like to be "the new kid." I am an extroverted master of disguising depression. I grew up thinking God had forsaking me.

That thought process lead to... glitches of alcoholism and drug use, high risk decisions, and a lot of preceding regrets. My past sexual relationships have been comprised of both male and female. I was divorced once, married twice. I have 4 children, which includes 1 step child. I struggle with my own self-competence to nurture a blended family with both teenager and elementary children issues to sort out.

I am currently a Christian will a ton of flaws, but I now have hope. I believe that hope has a recipe and the ingredients are free and attainable, by everyone. My true purpose is still not clear to me, but I instinctively gravitate to those suffering emotional turmoil. I have chosen to open myself so that others can find closure in them. Who I am... is far less important than who I believe I can be.